Monday, December 07, 2009,
I still can't sleep.
And what I really really want to do now would be to read. Or write. Or play the guitar, or draw, or run, or play with Corlie, or well. Read. Or write.
But I won't, cuz It'll just make me not sleep at all.
But I really want read now. Or write.
This is getting serious.
Get a grip man, get a grip.
amazing voice, talented; special.
I wish I were talented.
Don't we all?
`jol
Write.
4:35 AM
It's a cow. This relates to cats because it clarifies that cats are not cows.
Look. A happy post. Now let me be.
`jol
dead.
1:26 AM
Friday, December 04, 2009,
A Lesson from A Bike, A little Sister and Teacher Patience.
Two days ago, I finally taught my sister how to bike. After two days of teaching. I guess I learnt that you can't blame the kid for being slower at picking it up, considering her childhood revolves around cable TV and the computer whereas mine was climbing trees and crawling under drains in pretend "missions" with my brother. I guess I learnt that I really am luckier than her, in some weird twisted way. Though not as pampered, waited on hand and foot, I wouldn't trade my childhood, even if slightly abusive, for hers.
I learnt that though I had a right to be angry at her indolence. The frustrating teeth-grinding attitude of hers, how she expects it to all come so easily without any hardwork or effort put in. A few minutes into trying and she'll declare she's had enough, and start blaming everything else but herself. And I of course, did what normal older sisters did and got angry. Success comes to those with the determination to learn at all cost, be the price to pay scraped knees and countless failures. So apparently, being 9 years and more than a decade younger than me and my brother respectively, isn't her only difference, she lacks the same spirit. But. She's only coming eight. And my job isn't to just shout at her and expect her to learn. I've got some growing up to do. Even more so than her maybe. Harsh words only fuel anger but kind words only gain a friend. I've really got to learn.
When she finally managed to balance when I let go of her, well, the feeling is unexplainable. It's like how you first feel when you've learnt something new that awes you. Like a new superpower, like when you learn how to do a backflip and feel so ninja-like 'cause everyone else can't. Maybe that's only me, but I sure hope not. It can't be. And the weird thing would be, I think I felt happier than she was, when I don't really gain anything from it.
My friends say it's the feeling of accomplishment or because I'm proud of my little sister, but really, what comes next after all these little accomplishments. They come and lift your spirits and you feel like flying, and then they get old, become a thing of the past and is forgotten and you feel empty. Are we expected to just keep going on all these little accomplishments? When'll life start to really seem- well- fulfilled. It's like I've nothing to complain about, I've an awesome life and awesome friends and fun-filled days but you somehow just feel quite empty. Like, "Okay, so what's next?".
There's gotta be more than this.
There's gotta be.
Till then.
I really should stop thinking too much into things or I am rather certain my head will explode from the weight of it all.
Don't you just hate it when you find you're incappable of putting your thoughts into words?
'Cause more often than not, I'll find myself a victim of that, and, of course, get frustrated with myself over it.
`jol
I'll find it.
`jol
I'll find it.
12:12 AM
Wednesday, December 02, 2009,
If you're feeling down when you've no reason to feel down 'cause life hitherto's been awesome for you which makes you feel even more shitty 'cause you know you should be happy and thankful for the time you're having but are instead feeling down, which just adds to the general feel-downess of your life,
Watch these. They made me smile.
mmmm. I want a bro or boyfriend like that. I think we all do. Adorable much.
So. I've a newfound respect for India and her inhabitant. I don't mean that in a sarcastic way. Indians are pure geniuses.
Then again, the more Captain-obvious video that still made me laugh,
True that.
`jol
"Oh. My. Gosh. You're chinese? I always thought you were asian!"
Stupid people.
I Like Being Asian.
Pheace-outteh.
12:19 AM
Tuesday, December 01, 2009,
Well, haven't been online for ages.
Was working the IT fair from last thurs till this recent monday.
Was horrible and totally not worth it, I'm jus really glad it's over. My partner was CheeKuan, so well, saw him for 4 entire days, haha, people actually believe us when we say we're siblings.
But as we all know, there's always something to learn from everything. So here's what I learnt.
1) When you don't think about it, Pain doesn't exist.
2) It's a lot easier to tolerate the pain when you're pissed.
3) You can usually get people to do you favours by saying a lot of "please"es- work's better on the opposite sex.
4) Music can be a better companion than your collegue when you've to eat your meals alone.
5) Asses deserve to be told they're asses.
6) When you put on your best "I love my job, I love the the world, I'm happy" face and voice, more people buy from you.
7) Not all hot guys are obnoxious.
8) I got associated with your shoes.
Yup. So that outta the way.
Last week's CG was a Picnic at the Marina Barrage.
Awesome, chisun and I were game planners but we still had fun and participated in some of em. Will let the pictures do the talking, And yes, it was a bad hair day. Got sunburnt but at least I'm tanned again! (:
Was working the IT fair from last thurs till this recent monday.
Was horrible and totally not worth it, I'm jus really glad it's over. My partner was CheeKuan, so well, saw him for 4 entire days, haha, people actually believe us when we say we're siblings.
But as we all know, there's always something to learn from everything. So here's what I learnt.
1) When you don't think about it, Pain doesn't exist.
2) It's a lot easier to tolerate the pain when you're pissed.
3) You can usually get people to do you favours by saying a lot of "please"es- work's better on the opposite sex.
4) Music can be a better companion than your collegue when you've to eat your meals alone.
5) Asses deserve to be told they're asses.
6) When you put on your best "I love my job, I love the the world, I'm happy" face and voice, more people buy from you.
7) Not all hot guys are obnoxious.
8) I got associated with your shoes.
Yup. So that outta the way.
Last week's CG was a Picnic at the Marina Barrage.
Awesome, chisun and I were game planners but we still had fun and participated in some of em. Will let the pictures do the talking, And yes, it was a bad hair day. Got sunburnt but at least I'm tanned again! (:
Am not the only one who thinks this is really cute. Haha
Congcong
Epic Phail D: But the last time i did a cartwheel was cheerleading practise which was eons ago. Therefore, JUSTIFIED.
Told you it was a bad hair day :((
Jon Liuuu-
They probably hate me for making them tape it onto their shirts ont the journey to Alvern's place, but AH WELL.
Congcong
Epic Phail D: But the last time i did a cartwheel was cheerleading practise which was eons ago. Therefore, JUSTIFIED.
Told you it was a bad hair day :((
Jon Liuuu-
They probably hate me for making them tape it onto their shirts ont the journey to Alvern's place, but AH WELL.
LOVE.
Welllll.
SO. Like I mentioned, IT fair with working hours of bloody 10am to 9.30pm were ongoing from thurs to sunday.
On saturday night, there was a Grads party at Ze Jie's place. Mass invite, meaning as long as you're a grad, you're invited. Felt slightly weird because I didn't even know who he was initially, but I guess I'm really glad to have gone.
Bunked off work with KwanShyan, ZhiCai and Dominic, got to ZeJie's place at bout 12. Haha, was roughly just Guitar Hero-ing, Mah-jong, and Cards. Ohoh, and fooodd. Till we went to the park at bout 3.
A round of truth or dare there.
Back to the house, More playing . Those of us with work the next day slept at bout 6 and rose at bout 8plus. Another 12 hours or more of standing and trying to sell stuff. Finally the last day of work ends.
Welllll.
SO. Like I mentioned, IT fair with working hours of bloody 10am to 9.30pm were ongoing from thurs to sunday.
On saturday night, there was a Grads party at Ze Jie's place. Mass invite, meaning as long as you're a grad, you're invited. Felt slightly weird because I didn't even know who he was initially, but I guess I'm really glad to have gone.
Bunked off work with KwanShyan, ZhiCai and Dominic, got to ZeJie's place at bout 12. Haha, was roughly just Guitar Hero-ing, Mah-jong, and Cards. Ohoh, and fooodd. Till we went to the park at bout 3.
A round of truth or dare there.I guess it was really epic. The atmosphere and everything. I didn't dare do my dare which was to do some superstitious ritual on calling a spirit to appear. I wouldn't say I'm really superstitious but I definately believe in ghosts, however stupid, so yaaa. Haha
It became just a round of Truths eventually which was just as scary as the Dares. Haha, many dirty lil secrets eh.
Went on to explore the old catholic church. Once again, really epic. I don't know. Guess it's just my kinda fun. Felts like LFD. Haha, Shrill screams and cheap thrills, was a blast.
Back to the house, More playing . Those of us with work the next day slept at bout 6 and rose at bout 8plus. Another 12 hours or more of standing and trying to sell stuff. Finally the last day of work ends. 
What can I say? I love these people.
`Jol
What would you say?
5:54 PM
Tuesday, November 24, 2009,
Don't feel like talking much, but then again, I can't sleep, I figured I should really stop posting emo stuff on my blog.
Therefore, here's a picture of Elijah- Who's really really adorable- from after service (: (: (:
Left SMU earlier on saturday to get home and shower, then to Chisun's place, sleepover, but more for helping the entre prefects, we had to walk Jane home, the journey there was well.. 45 mins. Haha, from Bishan to Marymount. Cab back, I'm flat broke. Had supper, then back to work. Stayed up whilst the guys slacked, watched soccer and slept to design the notebooks. And, well, if you know me well enough, I only draw well when I'm emo. So was a pretty depressing night. Finally got everything done, in like.. an hour?
KF Chisun and I watched the sunrise then tried to get some shuteye, the juniors slept in another room, we had bout an hour or so of sleep then had to get up.
That was it i guess.
Oh, it's 3.40 already.
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY ALVERN,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTOPHER.
You guys are finally 16, welcome to the world of legal sex and legal watching of NC16 movies. Sadly, Chewing gum here is still illegal. Ah well, guess we can't all have it our way.
Cheers guys.
`Jol.
It ends
3:12 AM
Friday, November 20, 2009,
.
We were only kids
And our time couldn't end
And how tall did we stand
With the world in our hands
We were only kids
And we were best of friends
And we hoped for the best
And let go of the rest
The shadows and regrets
We let go of the rest.
`Jol
'Cept you'll never let go will you? And 'cause of that, I can't either, not fully. Fk you.
We were only kids
And our time couldn't end
And how tall did we stand
With the world in our hands
We were only kids
And we were best of friends
And we hoped for the best
And let go of the rest
The shadows and regrets
We let go of the rest.
`Jol
'Cept you'll never let go will you? And 'cause of that, I can't either, not fully. Fk you.
11:41 PM
Tuesday, November 17, 2009,
Saturday, church was awesome, slacking afterwards was kinda, Well. You know how it is when no one knows what to do. Haha, Late night Tau Hue (Or however you spell it, I'm chinese illiterate remember?), with the superduperawesome people, was really epic i guess (: Home by 12 plus
Sunday, Had to wake up really early, girl's day out with my mom and sis, we did a mani-pedi, haha, yes believe it, I got really bored, don't think I quite enjoyed it. :l Ah well. Lunch was, good? COFFEEE then to town to meet Angel, Alson, Royvin, alot of slacking and loitering, watched 2012, I thought it was a really good movie. Totally worth the cash. Love em. Wished I could spend more time with em but couldn't go for dinenr or stayover.
Monday, School. For the last time in uniform. An hour slacking with the climbing juniors, probably another last, Hazlee ain't coaching next yr alr, ah well.. Couldn't say I didn't expect it. Dental, I still miss my braces, think i felt better with them on. Home, Showered and such, just slacked on the net, then rushed off to Janelle's place.
It was Prom Night.
Well did the preperations there, Thanks a truckload to Michelle- Jan's sis- who without, we'd probably have been late. Err The girls and Jan's mom did my makeup cuz I kinda have the same makeup-IQ of a peanut, never did use makeup, never did like it either :l But it's prom, so yeah for the fun of it, Preperation is part of the fun i guess.
A brief overview of prom would be,
1) I love our clique.
2) I learnt to walk comfortably in heels.
3) It was really really fun, performances by our friends(Those that were sabotaged that it) were totally funny, I'm glad my levelmates are all so spontaneous. Good sportsmanship never fails. Haha
4) Like JZ says, $40 for 90 mins of buffet is a ripoff,
5) I see prom as a time to makeup to people you've hurt, talk to people you've never talked to, or at least try to. Like, it just doesnt feel right leaving somethings as they are. Sadly, I don't know why You're still this way. Guess people never do change back do they? Otherthan that, everything else was realy good (:
6) Saw really really pretty girls, all glamed up, and for once, the guys weren't in basketball shorts or jeans.
7) To Janelle's place after Prom, Sleepover with NFC, namely Jan,Gina,Jency,Char,KF, Marcus,Albert,Jeremy,Jason,Junyu. Movies, alcohol, food and alot of laming about.
8) I'll leave the rest of the talking to the pictures.
Cheers.
I was gonna point the Loser-L. Haha nahh, accident.
My husband. Jealous? :p
Haha Believe it or not, this was a total accident. But I really like how it turned out!
MRS FOO!
"Ass for rent!"
Could they have dressed any more different for twins?! I BLINKED! :(
TOLD YOU I HAD A PERSONAL BODYGUARD!
Marianna's so pretty!
To which we owe our accolades for Good grades. Mr Goh (: also known as DM.
What can I say? MANY hours of rockband and rented DVDs foster strong bonds. love em.
English Lit. Smart guys choose lit elect. I know you know why. :p
GIDEON LEE CHISUN.
Prom King. Wonder why. HAHA.
Heh. :)
"IT'S TOO EARLY TO WAKEUP."
I've got over a hundred pictures, so get them from facebook yeah, I've posted em up. Haven't got round to tagging though. Kinda lazy. (: Click HERE.Well I guess that's it. Haha in the risk of sounding cliche, I'm still gonna say "Oh how time flies".
I'm glad to be outta Guangyang, it never was easy, but I guess I'm glad of all the bad things that happened, it helps us to grow, and I'm thankful for all the wild fun times we had, Of which I don't think I'm able to forget even if I wanted to! I can't believe prom's breezed past! I had fun, of that I'm certain, I hope we'll all continue to have fun I guess. Love you guys. Always.
`Jol
No, It's not me, It's you. For sure.
`Jol
No, It's not me, It's you. For sure.
5:32 PM